That led me to telling myself I wasn't good enough and I had to do better. It goes the same way with positive words as negative. People say that all the time but it's easy to forget.
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Words can't affect you when you don't let them. I started thinking that people were lying to me or they said things and didn't really mean it. People gave me compliments and said nice things and I believe them and was proud of myself but as I got older I began having doubts. When I was young I actually had a lot of confidence. I joke about it a lot and I'm pretty open about it. Right, it's not a secret I don't think very highly of myself. I don't want to hurt anyone and if you knowing I'm hurt, hurts you then I don't want to tell you when I'm hurting if that makes any sense at all but here we go. The thing is I don't tell people my problems because I feel like I can handle them on my own and I don't want to drag people into my messes. I still want to have privacy but there's a main reason and I haven't told this story to anyone. I'm fine if you don't like me or what I do but if your only reason would be because you don't like what I look like, then what kind of argument is that? I'm very shy and prefer to keep to myself. People use appearances in excuse not to like someone. People can become famous just for their looks. We live in a society that almost revolves around appearance. The first few reasons I don't show myself are because I don't want people to have an opinion of my content and who I am based on what I look like. I have really important things to explain briefly. If you're here just to see what I look like, just hold on a bit longer. Jaiden: This video has been in the back of my head for longer than it should have been and I think it's about time I talked about it and explain why things are the way they are.